I need to be a priority, not an option. That is all

I need someone who loves me the way that I love them
I need someone who desires me the way I desire them
I need someone who takes care of me the way I care for them
I need someone who hurts when I hurt, has my back and stands beside me in all things, supports my dreams, and accepts me for who I am
I need someone who shows me affection, doesn't withhold attention, and puts me above all others including themselves
As I always do for them...

I need a mate, a life long partner, a protector, and a true love that is never-ending, never-changing.
I need to grow old with someone who truly wants to grow old with me, wants to be with me instead of someone who just doesn't prefer to be alone, has grown cold, and wants me only for what I do for them
I need someone to feel I'm worth their everything to keep, to trust, to respect and to be honest with.
I need someone who would give me the world if it were in their power,
The same way I give my all to them and the way I would give them the world if I could.

I want to be someone's lifeline, their anchor, their rock, their wings, and their light in the darkness
I want to be their everything, the one person whom they cannot stand the thought of losing, to be there in sickness and in health until death do us part
And I need someone willing to do the same for me

I need to be cherished and recognized for the precious gift I am and everything I bring to this life, to feel my very existence is honoured and appreciated in the way a woman like me should be
I need someone who says I love you every night and proves it every day

And all I really need in this life is for someone to truly love me for me
But, instead, I exist in my lonely reality

Dear Goddess, please give me strength...

I ask not for myself but so I may hold up those I love in this time of crisis and need.

I ask for guidance so that I may know the right things to say or when to simply say nothing at all.

I ask for peace for those who are suffering and can no longer cope.

I ask for understanding in the need for all this illness and suffering that surrounds us.

I ask for knowledge in all that I know I'm supposed to learn from this time in life.

But most of all dear Goddess, I ask for love... 

For those who shall leave these earthly confines to know how much they are loved by those they leave behind.  

For those left behind to know the one who has gone in body shall always remain in the heart.

Gina Kincade February 10, 2012

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Dear Goddess, I have one more wish to ask of you...

Please grant these troubled spirits the freedom to go to their chosen blessed place.

Where they feel neither the sting of pain and loss but rather pure love and acceptance.
Where sure health and happiness forever reigns.

May they soar among the eagles, ride the breeze through the trees and surf the waters of the rivers created by thy mother. 

Gina Kincade February 10, 2012

Life, Innocence, Infinity, Wisdom, Death...

Desperation, Delusion. 
Inspiration, Conclusion.
Motivation, Illusion.
Altercation, Confusion. 
Negotiation, Absolution.

Observation 

Corruption, Ammunition.
Assumption, Characterization. 
Deception, Confrontation.
Dysfunction, Internalization.
Perversion, Gratification.

Communication

Fabrication, Combustion.
Melodramatization, Habitation.
Misconception, Perception.
Mollification, Nullification.
Realization, Seclusion.

Termination

The Love Of One's Life Is Out There Somewhere...

Recently I've been conversing with a wonderful man who, although only knowing me over the Internet, has brought something to my life that I've been lacking for a very long time. Hope & Positivity

He has been supporting me, encouraging me to be positive even in the face of adversity and my recent struggles with both my personal health & my home life, both of which have been less then good to say the least.

Anyway, this post is dedicated to him, Benjamin, for always believing in me. Funny how people who've known you your whole life or have spent years living with you can end up letting you down when you need them the most and yet a total stranger can give so much of himself to help another feel like life is actually worth continuing.

Benjamin Russell, you are quite a man. Thank you!


The Love Of One's Life Is Out There Somewhere

Someone out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soulmate, the one you can tell your dreams to... he'll smile at you for no reason, but he'll never laugh at your silly insecurities. 

He'll brush the hair out of your eyes and he'll bring you chicken noodle soup when you're sick. 

He'll call you just to tell you goodnight before you get into bed because he wants your voice to be the last thing he hears before he falls asleep. 

Completely unexpectedly, he'll tilt your chin up, look into your eyes, and tell you that you're the most beautiful girl he has ever seen, and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it. - unknown

One day maybe I'll meet mine.